If you’ve been following my blog over the last week or so you know that I am feeling pretty powerful lately. I am feeling strong and confident about where this company is headed and I am excited about it’s future. Well although I am appearing ready to take on the world I also have two major weaknesses…I take things people say personally and I can easily be discouraged.
So let me tell you what happened first with the “I take things personally”. The other night we were having drinks with a friend and conversation changed to business, my business…his business…well I have no idea what I said before but he came out with “ya, you’re the idea girl”. Since those words came out of his mouth it’s been driving me crazy, what did he mean by that? It is bothering me because I don’t think it was meant as a compliment as in…Julia is full of great ideas…I seem to think at the time we were talking about how much money I’m not making…I am thinking he meant that I have lots of great ideas but I am not a great business person. 🙁 I know, I know, I should just ask him so it doesn’t bother me and I probably will. I’m not mad at him for saying it, I am upset if that is the way people see me. I know I have great ideas but I think I really do have a great business mind (I’m just too big hearted I think and because I love what I’m doing so much I’m just as happy doing it for free). But, if that is truly the case then it is not such a bad thing maybe, maybe I just need to direct my efforts and attention to just that, being the idea person and let someone else run the money side of things for me so I can actually make a living at this.
The next one, I am easily discouraged. Although I am determined and can be stubborn sometimes I am also easily discouraged by the words of others. Like the comment above or something simple like tonight being at the arena and having the rink guy tell me that I can’t put a car on the ice because the logistics of the arena won’t allow it and that the shoot out I have planned is typically run by another organization and in a particular fashion. I had had such a great day. I ran into two people today that I hadn’t seen in quite some time and they asked about the company and I was able to smile ear to ear and tell them how happy I was doing this then I get to the rink all happy and excited and I hear those two pieces of information and I want to throw all my papers in the air and stomp my feet like a 5 year old.
I know it seems silly and once I get a good night’s sleep I know I’ll wake up and be ready to tackle the world again and will have come up with an even better idea than stuffing as many spectators dressed as clowns as we can into the smallest car we can get our hands on. But it drives me crazy that little things like that can get to me. I need to toughen my skin, I need to care less what people think and use that energy for something positive and when something doesn’t work out the way I want it to I need to look at as an opportunity to do something better.
Is there anyone else out there who is just as crazy as me? If so, how do you cope and manage your emotions when it comes to what other people think or say?
Well time for some much needed sleep so that I can wake up on the same high I’ve been feeling for the past week…thanks Donald for writing a book that is teaching me to strengthen my back bone and not be afraid to take on the world.