The funniest thing just happened. I was just logging on to write a blog post but wasn’t sure what I wanted to talk about tonight. I did a quick check on Facebook to see if I had any messages and I noticed a friend of mine had posted this photo. I decided this is what I am going to talk about tonight.
The clip under the photo said “The first step to getting anywhere is deciding you’re no longer willing to stay where you are.” This photo is who I am, and more specifically exactly who I am today.
This company excites me. I spend every day sitting in a cubicle. Not a half hour after I get there my eyes hurt, I feel exhausted and my mind is running a mile a minute about everything but what I am doing. I get home and I rush through my evening responsibilities so that I can get to work on this company. I get downstairs in my office or in to bed with my laptop and before I know it three hours have passed and it is way past my bedtime. I finally decide I better get some sleep then it takes me an hour to actually fall asleep because my mind is racing with a million ideas…not grocery lists, or what laundry needs to get done but a solution to the invitation design problem I am having, the best idea to hang those 50 paper lanterns at the wedding, what colour balloons should we use at the event…and the list goes on and on. Most days I don’t remember driving to work because I spent the entire time thinking. When I finally get to work I can’t wait to get out of the parking garage so I have reception on my phone so I can send the email I thought of while I am riding up in the elevator.
I love that I never run out of things to do. I created my company the way it is for a reason and I am constantly assessing, reassessing and trying to figure out how to perfect it. There are days when I feel like I have made a huge mistake and I am scared to death but let me tell you, in the last year and a half there have only been a small handful of those days. The other 98% of the days have been spent with butterflies in my stomach and an exhausted mind because I just can’t seem to get it to stop creating.
Aaaaahhhhhh!!!!! I am so excited by this company. It brings me so much pleasure that I could just dance!!
When times were really tough and I was not so sure I was making the right decision, I was talking with a woman who is in a very similar situation to me and she said something to me that I will never forget. She was in the same situation, she was working a job she didn’t enjoy and she finally took the leap and just quit. That’s right, she quit her secure job for her passion. She said that day she wanted to run out into the forest and scream because she felt so free. OMG!!!! I can’t wait for that moment. I can feel it brewing. It’s right there, I know it is, I can feel it. I am so close to running through the forest screaming and I am so excited for that moment I could scream right now.
Have you ever wanted something so bad? Have you ever had that gut feeling that it was all just going to work?
Jump with me. Be who you want to be and leave everyone else behind wishing they could do it too.